Life behind the fence

I Will Not Fly Today

I know why the uncaged bird doesn't sing. What lurks beyond the cage I cannot say. I reach, but knees knock against hollowed-out bones like the hollowed heart of their carrier. Doors swivel, flip, revolve out of character. The path unclear. Will I fly out over, around or under?  I cannot decipher a clipped wing from a mended one. I am mentally trapped as a Stallion tied to a … [Read More...]


I Need To Say Something Entirely Different To White People

I took the Megabus, Chicago to Nashville a little while ago.  I joked on Facebook about how all the Black-Americans on board collectively complained about how freezing cold it was after we had a rousing discussion of Ferguson, the protest then still in its infancy. On the way back to Chicago, a black man in a short sleeved tee got on the bus and yelled loudly, “it’s cold as f*ck on this bus!” … [Read More...]


In which it is okay for me to exist here

I shared a FaceBook post last week that made me feel powerfully vulnerable and ashamed.  Bloggers call this a "vulnerability hangover," which seems pretty all true.  I shared it after tossing and turning one night, after hearing some harsh words spoken about me, I wanted to rise up and defend … [Read More...]


Struggling with Grace

*I wrote the following guest post for the upcoming Jumping Tandem Retreat coming up May 1-3 in Ashland, NE which I'll be key-noting on the 1st evening!  Please, pretty please come join us! Learn more about it here & register here.* Hello, my name is Grace and I’ve struggled with … [Read More...]


Light in the Darkness

On grace, the light in the darkness.  I'm guest posting today for my homie, Juan Lopez. Grace in the light of Christ means having courage.  Courage to get out of bed and face the fears of basic living that overwhelm knowing grace will carry you through it.  Courage when, having gotten out of said … [Read More...]


The Day I sent my Daddy to Prison

I was jittery nervous in that witness box. I shoved sweaty hands under my little thighs to keep them from shaking.  Across and in front of me, Ma was on my left, Dad on my right.  On my direct right, the honorable Judge So-And-So presiding.  The court recorder was down in front, the jury,  my … [Read More...]


When your First Born Son is Half Way

You, my first born son are halfway to Becoming A Man.  At 9 yrs. old, I've had your for half.  Lord willing, I'll "have" you for 9 more years before you carry … [Read More...]


I remember

I remember when I used to get up before my kiddos to read through my favorite daily devotional, Seeking God's Face.  Ransom would eventually lumber out of his … [Read More...]


God am I really trusting you because ‘ish is f*cked?

About 7 months ago, shit fell apart.  All the way apart.  In every way, apart.  Complete decimation of normalcy.  It was, in part what divorce and custody … [Read More...]


38 Birthday Pearls

Today, I am 38.  How woefully late thirties of me.  Last year I wrote 37 Birthday Pearls & the year before 36 Birthday Pearls each year adding one new pearl … [Read More...]


See How They Love One Another – #BlackLivesMatterSunday

Around 260 AD the second of two great plagues killed much of the world.  It was estimated two thirds of Alexandria died as result.  Frightened people … [Read More...]

A ranty two cents on #BlackLivesMatter

I've wanted to write more (articles, posts, novels, books, etc.) on why #BlackLivesMatter & throw in my .2 cents on #Ferguson...this movement that's global … [Read More...]


The Shame Oh the Shame Oh the Shame

I hung out with some of my alumni recently.  (If you're new here...I worked in college ministry for 12 yrs.)  My guuuuurl, Tia noticed me lookin' all sad and … [Read More...]


Worst 31Day’er Ever.

It's time for me to face facts: I SUCK at writing every day for #31Days.  Publicly, at least.  At the bare minimum, Ive produced words, ideas, prayers, … [Read More...]


I Am Not Okay

Are you okay? They see you cry. They see you fall in a fast, steep crumble. Are you okay? There’s so much to fear, so much to worry about. They roll up … [Read More...]


I’m Getting Sober

The other day I FB'ed this: 'Any lengths to get "sober." Whatever your "sober" is, do it. Join me. Any length. Freedom is worth it. Just before I … [Read More...]